Pointers to the formless: ears to hear


As the ego, we are telling ourselves a story.  We are believing we are the story.  We are most often asleep to the truth that we are not the story but the awareness that is experiencing the story.  I know this kind of language is difficult to process and can actually create more confusion.  As the ego, we want to plan and control.  The ego's purpose is to plan and control.  It is a survival mechanism that is ultimately trying to avoid death.  When we begin to wake up, the ego will want to take ownership of the awakening and try to "do" something to awaken (or at least take credit for the awakening). But we are not the ego.  The awakening is leaving the ego behind.  An ego can't wake up.  The absence of a false identity is the waking up experience.  It is like something leaves that has always been there and the space that remains is our true self, the divine awareness "we" are.  The "am-ness" of the I am.

Dying to live…


When the ego is constricted or constrained or squeezed, it will respond.  The ego's job is to respond to conflict in order for the biological unit to survive.  Consciousness focuses its attention on the form and through the form.  "God" can't help but willingly give "himself" to the identity of form because "God is love."  The dreamer looses himself in the character of the dream.  Like the prodigal son story, the father willingly gives himself (his inheritance and identity) to the son so the son can take his journey of discovery to find himself as the son of the father. When the ego or the false self or the illusory identity is constricted the response is to either grow stronger as an ego (the sun is still resisting the gravity within) or the ego will collapse (gravity wins and a Supernova is born).  Many who have awakened did so as a result of great tragedy or trauma or fear or collapse of their egoic identity.  The stronger ego will continue the cycle until it collapses (maybe in another life or just prior to physical death).  With the collapsed ego, awareness emerges through the physical form as the "light of the world" Jesus described.