Pointers to the formless: PARADOX


The mind attempts to go deeper and deeper looking for the indivisible root cause.  It believes there is always a singular truth to any circumstance.  It creates an absolute paradigm of "good" and "bad" so it can manipulate the next moment to bring only "good" and exclude the "bad."  Seeking truth from this perspective will bring us to truth but it is an indirect path.  We look through our electron microscopes to discover the indivisible and the root cause that we believe will allow us to predict every moment, but what we find is randomness.  The indivisible doesn't exist.  Cause and effect don't work.  We even create concepts to describe what we can't understand like quantum and relativity.  The indirect path brings us to paradox. The direct path is paradox.  When we follow the pointers to truth, we find the end of our minds.  Paradox takes us beyond our minds where truth can be experienced for what it IS.  We can take the long way around the mountain by the path of the mind or take the shortcut through paradox.  

The way of life


Life reveals contrast.  Life brings us conflict.  Life can be a struggle that we resist or an eternal life we live.  We can flow with the river or be a rock eroded over time.  Life is like our body when it is trying fight a virus, there is an internal struggle, a war really, that is taking place to bring harmony back to the body.  The way of life is as it is so that consciousness can experience perceived separateness to know oneness.  When we are presented with opportunities to flow with life we get to choose which path we will take.  The path of resistance is struggle but eventually leads to surrender.  Life can be a fire that burns away what is temporal, revealing what is eternal.  The path of eternal life is living as a human form in harmony with life to enjoy the miracle of life.  As eternal consciousness, we manifested as form to experience the formless.

Pointers to the formless: MEMORIES


Years ago I was flying an event as a test pilot evaluating and measuring the response of a new aircraft under adverse conditions.  The aircraft was a F/A-18E/F Super Hornet (the Navy's newest fighter jet at the time) and the test was to simulate loosing an engine while launching off the aircraft carrier.  As I slowed down in airspeed, loosing an engine was more difficult to control.  On the last test point I couldn't control the aircraft anymore.  The aircraft departed i.e. the aircraft rolled upside down and I wasn't in control.  My starting altitude for the test maneuver was 2000 ft  (pretty low).  Upside down, out of control and that close to the water, my first instinct was to eject.  A lot happened in just a few seconds.  The details are pretty boring and technical (unless you are pilot).  In the end I didn't eject but I did miss hitting the water by only a few feet.  That was an extremely intense day sprinkled with moments of sheer terror.  Almost crashing a jet is a pretty serious life event.  Today many of the details of that day are a little foggy but the intensity of that moment is still with me.

Pointers to the formless: ears to hear


As the ego, we are telling ourselves a story.  We are believing we are the story.  We are most often asleep to the truth that we are not the story but the awareness that is experiencing the story.  I know this kind of language is difficult to process and can actually create more confusion.  As the ego, we want to plan and control.  The ego's purpose is to plan and control.  It is a survival mechanism that is ultimately trying to avoid death.  When we begin to wake up, the ego will want to take ownership of the awakening and try to "do" something to awaken (or at least take credit for the awakening). But we are not the ego.  The awakening is leaving the ego behind.  An ego can't wake up.  The absence of a false identity is the waking up experience.  It is like something leaves that has always been there and the space that remains is our true self, the divine awareness "we" are.  The "am-ness" of the I am.